Saturday, February 26th, 2005
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Wednesday, January 5th, 2005
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1:51 am
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New year was hardly shit hot...
This town id driving me a bit batshit... I need out.
current music: Grandmaster Flash
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Tuesday, December 21st, 2004
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6:00 pm
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5:33 pm
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F:Your Beauty lies
in Contradiction. Controversial, unpredictable, and
never what anyone expects.
You appearance and your personality are two
opposite things. Even your
appearance sends different signals to different
people. To some you may look
innocent and sweet, to others you look mysterious
and intimidating at the same
time. No one ever knows what to expect with you.
You are a little bit of
everything all mixed together. You can be watching
the football game with the
guys one minute and the next out shopping at the
mall. You seem to be almost a
different person every time you meet someone, but
at the same time you know
exactly who you are and there is always that one
thing that makes you you. You
enjoy keeping people guessing and people love how
completely unpredictable you
are.
Some Things
That Represent You:
Element:
Fire, Water Animal: Chameleon Color:
Dark Tones, Light
Tones Song: Everything by Alanis Morriesette
Expression:
Half-smile
Gemstone:
Opal Mythological Creature: Gryphon,
Half-breeds Planet: Mars Hair
Color: Red Eye Color:
Brown
Quote:
"Appearances can be deceiving."
Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Original Pictures Are Back! Detailed Results::..
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5:18 pm
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Ohhh totally yeah!
Ok... so I haven't been about for a while and it seems apparent that I haven't written anything in my journal for quite a while. Life has been mediocre at best, with so few events happening in the past few months. And sometimes I ask myself if that's my future... plain average... Get up, go to work and go home... Spiritually, I feel disconnected, but I'll reconnect soon.
It's all about music, nature, appreciation, inspiration... It's about becoming aware.
Work
Have to take 2 weeks off work as I have mechanical back pain... Which sucks ass big style as I feel like I should be there helping out. To be honest, Barracuda ain't my kinda place, not that I don't like working there... I just miss intelligent customers and the pub culture. Still I love the staff I work with.
But am gutted about my back... they thought I was skiving and shit but they got a doctor's note now so they can't say nowt.
I'm 21!
Woot! And what a wicked Birthday I had... saw friends and even some people came after work which was really totally ace of them because they must've been tired.
Nick got me a solar cross style Celtic necklace which I don't plan on ever taking off, it's ace. Got some books too and a Green Man stained glass thing. Everyone seemed happy even if Dad did make a dick of himself. Like everyone together getting along. Mint.
Love Life
Next paragraph!
Next year's plans
Get in to Roehampton university and travel. Hopefully will go to America if plans are the same. Would love to see a raccoon. Also I'd like to see some of Europe and do a Max n Paddy across the UK. Nick ain't ever seen Scotland, it's like what??? So I plan to take him. We can go on a train & stay in hostels.
Obviously I have my other plans. To learn about British wildlife, especially birds and plants which by now I should really know, being a self-confessed nature girl. I have some beautiful pictures I took today, so I shall try & work out how to put them up later.
current mood:  grateful
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5:03 pm
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5:02 pm
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Sunday, October 31st, 2004
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1:21 pm
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Halloween! Woo!
Work's Ok & am in a slightly better mood today. Get to dress up...
Tryin for John Moors uni.
current mood:  bored
current music: GrandMaster Flash
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Sunday, October 24th, 2004
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12:55 pm
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Haven't written in here for a while as I've been working most of the time... I don't mind my job but I don't like a lot of the people who I have to serve... sometimes it's like friggin Chester zoo!
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Sunday, October 3rd, 2004
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4:28 am
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How the hell did Pete get me in to techno? Gawd I dunno...
Life is... well, boring at the moment. Have resolved to make new friends because my others have gone to uni. I'm all grown up too... or more in a transition from student to adult... No more smoking pot on the college field, no more hanging around on street corners. I like to eat out, chill to all sorts of music, go to nice quiet bars and am getting interested in politics and the philosophy surrounding it... but more from an objective perspective & what's more it ain't an excuse so much as to hate the government... full time work has made me grow up.
having trouble sleeping really... maybe cuz I slept well this afternoon... So I dunno
bRaiNDe@D
current mood: blah
current music: Alchemist featuring Prodigy, Nina Sky & Illa Gee
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Tuesday, September 28th, 2004
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3:35 am
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Shit man... a lot has happened, so the low down...
Am lookin for a new job, though it's not really working well. Dodgy stuff goin' on.
Anyway, today I researched things in the area of social work, but most of the jobs involve wiping arses and that ain't my style. I'm very much a one on one kinda person and prefer to use my brain. The work sounds like similar shite to the health and social care course, which I dropped out of because it was so mind numbingly easy I was going crazy at the slow pace. Not sayin' that nurses are slow or stupid.. jus' that the course was.
Can't be arsed holding grudges. mark's left wor and he told people my brother has HIV for some odd reason... But whatever.
I'm starting to care less... and to feel more like an adult. Like maybe I can start travelling soon and learning about the world. Jus' wanna new job first.
I have Irlens... need coloured sheets.
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Tuesday, August 24th, 2004
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2:56 pm
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So went to Doga & Heather's last night, it was good. Bob's cat has had kittens and they're adorable. Tiny little creatures, fascinating. We had a smoke (first chong in months... won't do no harm) and watched Reservior Dogs. I've now seen all the Tarintino movies... But I still like Kill Bill most.
current mood:  aggravated
current music: Govinda
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2:51 pm
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Fuck my bloodline...
Looks like we had a visit from relatives. Dad told my brother... not me, even though he KNEW it was my day off. Just fuck it all, I'm sick of it. family my arse... I've never known it and y'know what? I'm glad... it's all just an illusion anyway.
Some of my family I haven't seen since I was 14 because Dad separates me from them... Like maybe he's embarassed about what I am... It's always money and that alcoholic bitch who abused me (in front of him whilst he laughed) first... then my brother, then me. Because I'm not fucking subservient to that psychopath...
No really, she is a psychopath... there's something not right about her. He keeps her away from me because he knows I'll hurt her if she pushes me... and she probably would. She'd try and hurt me again, she'd try and scare me and make me cry... BUt it won't happen. The people I have on my side, I'm a strong person. I'm a woman and I'm damn proud that I posess a womb, that I work and that I live an honest life. What can she do? What can anyone do? I'm me and NOBODY has power over that.
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Monday, August 23rd, 2004
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12:07 pm
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Made a new friend, yay!
Work ain't so bad... having a hard time with Mark who thinks I have some sort of problem with young people. Because I won't go to Unchained or serve anyone underage. Funny how he's always saying how much of a better barman he thinks he is than me... yet he'll serve underaged people if he likes them. Yeah... I don't like a lot of local rock nights because they're full of 15 year olds and apparently I talk down to people younger than me... but to be honest I take no heed to what he says. He'll do anything to make me feel bad, but I don't let people have power over me...
He's tried to emotionally blackmail me before, I don't need people like that in my life. He has no power over me and he's only showing weakness in himself. He buullies people, I've seen him make them cry and whilst I can poke fun and tease, I never do it to hurt people. He's got worse recently. To be honest I'll give things a few months, but I'm leaving if he keeps on trying to humiliate me.
Anyway, met a new person called Charlie and she's well cool. Been out to South Central last night & am currently trying to get hold of Nick... if I can't I'll look who else to phone. Joe said she'd be out too, but oddly enough didn't turn up.
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Friday, August 20th, 2004
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5:52 pm
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5:49 pm
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5:48 pm
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5:44 pm
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| How to make a MoonRat |
Ingredients:
5 parts competetiveness
1 part crazyiness
1 part beauty |
Method:
Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add lustfulness to taste! Do not overindulge! |
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5:41 pm
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